I should go home

four years ago I broke my leg playing soccer.  some ethnic kid on the other team got confused and thought my leg was the ball, so he kicked it as hard as he could as we were sprinting at each other.  there was a loud pop and I ended up on the ground blah blah.

some days - normally when it's cold - my leg aches terribly.  the pain goes from the middle of my shin (I don't know if it's my right or left shin because I can't remember which direction is which) all the way up to one of my knees.  in the knee it's the worst.  throughout the day the pain will ebb and flow, sometimes a dull ache and others almost too painful to remain standing.  about fifteen minutes ago it was horrible.  I thought about picking someone out of my contacts to text and complain to.  I already told Gina earlier this morning... who else will give me their pity?

I imagined texting "I'm fucking in pain."

if I texted myself that, and the receiving self didn't know what was going on with the sending self, the former would have replied "having painful sex or you're in a lot of pain?"

then we would both think I was clever.